Life is about rushing..is it? Well, if it isnt, then why do people go around chasing their dreams..And if not, why in Quran we are asked to perform good deeds as if today is the last day we live? Or if not, why are we asked to give the best we can offer?
Hmm..just that this thought came into my mind when some friends asked about my being.. because havent heard of myself. So my first answer was i'm ok. as usual.. struggling, rushing..
A couple of my frens said they have wasted their second year so in the third year they had to struggle a lot. But i told them all the same. I think i was quite productive in my second year but maybe as my sv said i got too carried away wif the refinement and has not focus much on his subtle suggestion to work on something new. So now had to fuss my butt working on it.
Had another meeting wif my sv yesterday to report the progress of the automatic terminal creation. Tried to mine the word context; looking at the predecessor and successor, and find the high association set to suggest as the similar concept words. Had to do more testing and generate more data and next try to find another method beside this method.
I was not as bad as last time. I managed tos tay calm but couldnt silent the whispers in my heart nor silent the echo in my mind that this happens probably because of my intention, i tried as much as i can to do my works in the goal of knowledge gain; not merely to complete the study, the thesis or to aim to go b ack to Malaysia..well..but at the same time i need to make sure i can reach another goal..shouldnt pressure myself much i think, but u know, it is just there..anyway, i promise myself i will not go crazy and afterall, this is about knowledge gaining..fine. fullstop.
last night i watched 2 documentaries on itv4. the first one was on the danger of body tanning. whilst it has become so popular that salon mushrooming everyone and one can turn from pale to olive tone in a few hours, many has not realized the bad effect on this on their health. this programme hosted by a member of Girls Aloud who used to be a slave on this tanning craze but stopped when discovering its effect on her skin and health and now working on campaigning for people to stop and also to ask government to create regulations. it is reported that increasing number of skin cancer cases among people experienced on tanning. some had got addicted and undergone it almost everyday. others spend tonnes on products that claimed to make the tanning process through the machine more effective and long lasting. others take it as daily routine through supplement, visiting the salon everyday for a few hours and walk out darker. An interview with a skin expert says that these people experience new and growing moles all over their body. Ok, a short summary on people pursuing their dream towards 'real beauty'.
The second show was also about dream chasing. Titled 8 sons and no daughter. It was about couples with one gender children who wished and kept working on getting a child with an opposite gender. Most of the families comprised of all boys, and it was shown of the desperation of the couples especially the mothers towards having a baby girl. They are in dilemma because after trying for many years some keep wondering if they are just capable of producing one 1 gender children. Some husband blamed themselves because they said teh gender depends on their sperms. Some already had 4 sons, and 1 family with 8 sons. In UK gender-designed babies are banned. So these couples flew out of UK, one case to Spain to undergo the preimplantation genetic diagnosis (PGD) programme. Similar to IVF, this programme is usually expensive and do not necessarily gurantee the desired outcome. The process goes that the mother should inject medication daily to simulate the ovum to simulate more eggs. And then the couple should go to the clinic and the doctor remove some eggs. Next sperms are injected into the ovums. When the embryo with the desired gender is ready, it is implanted into the uterus and presumed pregnant until otherwise (when the pregnancy check after a certain period is performed). Among the 3 or 4 pairs featured in the show, only 1 case had successfully conceived, and got a pair of girls. One implantation failed, and one kept on trying using a subtler and more natural method.
So here goes the second story about working out for any goal you want in life. Funny why i had to share this here but somehow i think besides to share this thought of mine and also making explicit my knowledge gained through the show, i sort of telling myself that it is normal to have a goal in life. And to work for it. Because that keeps us busy and that shapes us into who we are. So be thankful for who you are!
Hmm..just that this thought came into my mind when some friends asked about my being.. because havent heard of myself. So my first answer was i'm ok. as usual.. struggling, rushing..
A couple of my frens said they have wasted their second year so in the third year they had to struggle a lot. But i told them all the same. I think i was quite productive in my second year but maybe as my sv said i got too carried away wif the refinement and has not focus much on his subtle suggestion to work on something new. So now had to fuss my butt working on it.
Had another meeting wif my sv yesterday to report the progress of the automatic terminal creation. Tried to mine the word context; looking at the predecessor and successor, and find the high association set to suggest as the similar concept words. Had to do more testing and generate more data and next try to find another method beside this method.
I was not as bad as last time. I managed tos tay calm but couldnt silent the whispers in my heart nor silent the echo in my mind that this happens probably because of my intention, i tried as much as i can to do my works in the goal of knowledge gain; not merely to complete the study, the thesis or to aim to go b ack to Malaysia..well..but at the same time i need to make sure i can reach another goal..shouldnt pressure myself much i think, but u know, it is just there..anyway, i promise myself i will not go crazy and afterall, this is about knowledge gaining..fine. fullstop.
last night i watched 2 documentaries on itv4. the first one was on the danger of body tanning. whilst it has become so popular that salon mushrooming everyone and one can turn from pale to olive tone in a few hours, many has not realized the bad effect on this on their health. this programme hosted by a member of Girls Aloud who used to be a slave on this tanning craze but stopped when discovering its effect on her skin and health and now working on campaigning for people to stop and also to ask government to create regulations. it is reported that increasing number of skin cancer cases among people experienced on tanning. some had got addicted and undergone it almost everyday. others spend tonnes on products that claimed to make the tanning process through the machine more effective and long lasting. others take it as daily routine through supplement, visiting the salon everyday for a few hours and walk out darker. An interview with a skin expert says that these people experience new and growing moles all over their body. Ok, a short summary on people pursuing their dream towards 'real beauty'.
The second show was also about dream chasing. Titled 8 sons and no daughter. It was about couples with one gender children who wished and kept working on getting a child with an opposite gender. Most of the families comprised of all boys, and it was shown of the desperation of the couples especially the mothers towards having a baby girl. They are in dilemma because after trying for many years some keep wondering if they are just capable of producing one 1 gender children. Some husband blamed themselves because they said teh gender depends on their sperms. Some already had 4 sons, and 1 family with 8 sons. In UK gender-designed babies are banned. So these couples flew out of UK, one case to Spain to undergo the preimplantation genetic diagnosis (PGD) programme. Similar to IVF, this programme is usually expensive and do not necessarily gurantee the desired outcome. The process goes that the mother should inject medication daily to simulate the ovum to simulate more eggs. And then the couple should go to the clinic and the doctor remove some eggs. Next sperms are injected into the ovums. When the embryo with the desired gender is ready, it is implanted into the uterus and presumed pregnant until otherwise (when the pregnancy check after a certain period is performed). Among the 3 or 4 pairs featured in the show, only 1 case had successfully conceived, and got a pair of girls. One implantation failed, and one kept on trying using a subtler and more natural method.
So here goes the second story about working out for any goal you want in life. Funny why i had to share this here but somehow i think besides to share this thought of mine and also making explicit my knowledge gained through the show, i sort of telling myself that it is normal to have a goal in life. And to work for it. Because that keeps us busy and that shapes us into who we are. So be thankful for who you are!


























